The majority of ethnic Russians who came with the occupation clearly will stay in Estonia. Although the number of people who came originally from the East has not diminished significantly, over the years they have become less noticeable. In the past one could identify non-Estonians by their clothes, but no more. However, on the buses to Lasnamäe, a Tallinn high-rise suburb built during the Soviet occupation with a high concentration of ethnic Russians, lively conversations in Russian are the rule. When a bus driver or a Lasnamäe pedestrian is asked for directions, inevitably the response is in Russian.
Native Estonians feel that Russians can never become Estonians, because the Russian character is different. Yet two of my schoolteachers in a refugee school were daughters of Russian émigrés from the Czarist times, and I cannot thank them enough for their positive influence on me. To me, the ethnic Russians seem very warmhearted. Although I was a stranger to her, an elderly Russian lady, who now lives in the house in which my mother was born, showed her home to me graciously. When I left she repeatedly blessed my family and me. I was told of an instance in which a man had fallen and injured himself on a street in Tallinn. Most people passed by him in a distance, but a lady with a Russian accent knelt down to help him. At the same time I was told that although ethnic Russians are warmer, they are quicker to give up on work, and are less focused and less tenacious than Estonians.
While in Tallinn I observed veterans who fought in 1944 against the Soviet army demonstrating to be recognized as equals to those who fought in the War of Independence in 1919 against the same colossus in the East. The hang-up seems to stem that most of them wore German uniforms and were supplied by Germans. But it seem preposterous that after Estonia became independent in 1991 their cause has not been recognized as just, and that it was not folly to fight for Estonia’s independence given that in 1918 a similar effort succeeded. Estonians who fought in 1944 against the Soviets surely had in mind the mass deportation of 10,000 academics, administrators and their families to Siberia in the 1940–41 period of Soviet occupation.
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From the main roads, I could see hay being harvested. Some fields had crops called raps (canola, also rapeseed in Canada) for producing cooking oil. Others may have been unused because crop rotation requires that land rest. I visited a man whom I met in 1982 when he was still a schoolboy. At that time he had led me to a deserted village where one of my ancestors once farmed. There he took out of his pocket a crest with Estonian colors: blue, black and white, then forbidden by the Soviet occupiers.
He was courageous to show this to a stranger. Now, twenty-two years later, he provided me with some insight into declining Estonian agriculture. He said that it was partly a self-inflicted problem.
(To be continued)